Just when you think you’re bouncing back, you realize it’s actually a one-two punch!
I’ve learned that the ego can be a nagging difficult creature especially at such times. For no reason, he can start to get restless and if you listen to him, and feed him, he just gets bigger and harder to deal with. Just when you think he’s starting to settle down, the little bugger jumps right up and gets you into trouble! And when that happens, now, I breathe, and starve him. As I breathe, I listen to my breathing and in my mind, sometimes aloud, chant, “om shanti” and it clears up the noise. At least, it lets me step back and watch the noise.
The ego is the part of me that feels hurt, and pain, and nurtures the insecurities that can pop up and hurt anyone at anytime. And the ego is the funny part that we spend our lives either listening to or learning to starve. I choose to move beyond it as much as I can. A daily commitment but one definitely worth making – there is so much out there to love, why be held back by the ego?
There’s not much life throws at you that isn’t manageable, and there is a lesson in everything. As a good friend of mine says, equanimity is the key.
And as I am learning from another good friend, being calm and taking time out for yourself can be a wonderful thing. Slowing down and enjoying each moment without worrying about what’s coming next is a good way to live. You have to keep an eye on the horizon, but remember that the ground beneath your feet is never coming back and you have to be ready to stop and look around you as often as you can.
Love and peace!
